Hey six
when my only tool was a bottle my only remedy was to drink.
That made me feel useless and pathetic which meant I needed to apply my remedy again....
See how self serving that cycle is?
Start with a simple premise - you're not a loser and you're not helpless.
You're addicted, but addiction can be dealt with.
If you can't deal with it alone, get some help - even if its a retry of things you've tried before.
Try everything - but the one thing you can't do is keep relying on that bottle to solve your problems.
It's like petrol on an open fire Six.
Search harder, cast your net wider for solutions - you're worth the effort.
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