I got a sponsor!
7:30 a.m. I had a moment of courage and knew it wouldn't be coming back any time soon. Picked up that 10,000 lb. phone. Called a woman , K, who's always been so kind to me.
"K?"
"Yeah, everything going okay?"
"I'm sorry to call you so early. I just wanted to ask... I know you're probably already sponsoring a lot of people, but I just had to ask..."
"You're asking ME to be your sponsor?"
"Well, yeah, but if you're too busy.."
"I AM SO HONORED!"
Well how about that? I should have asked 2 years ago, when this recovery journey began. Stinkin' thinkin' kept holding me back. Always feeling like a nuisance.
I feel such a sense of relief. I'm so ready to do the dirty work of figuring out this life of mine.
Just wanted to share in case any of you are in a similar position. Don't be afraid to ask for help! Codependents need to work their programs just as rigorously as addicts do, if not more so. Our problems tend to be so insidious, as they're often disguised as positive attributes (Altruism! Caring! Love!)
Blessings to all of you.