I suggest if u really want out go to social services. I don't know about WA but N.Y. will help u find an apt. I know no one wants to go this route but you feel trapped. Meaness is a type of verbal abuse. Social services in our area help pay for furthering education. What about a vocational tech. program they can be less than a year. and some counties pay for them. Feeling like your backed into a corner is a bad feeling. Selling your soul for security is a bad payoff. How I feel about myself is soo important to me know. Let me know how u are doing! Keep your chin up and know u are not alone. With love, Kerry