Glad you found us Frank. Welcome.
Just our of interest, when you went to AA did you just go to meetings? Or did you get a sponsor and work the recovery program, and get involved in service and the like? There is a big difference. When they read How It Works it says about thoroughly following the path. Just popping along to meetings wasn't thorough enough to get me recovered and on the way to sanity.
I agree with Dee. We can keep digging as low as we like. Right to death if that's what we choose. I hope you will choose to start building back up from your rock bottom as it is now, and not take things deeper and darker.
BB