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Old 01-29-2018, 12:38 AM
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Dustitoffman
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Hi
I am also on day 29 of January.
I had 111 days under my belt before Christmas and i felt healthy. I made the mistake of going back to the poison for the week of Christmas. It would be moderate controlled!
Who was I kidding!
I luckily managed to back out off this mistake sharpish. And guess what?
When I thought about that skirmish with alcohol I realized that it was absolutely not required it made me a lesser person less aware, less able, less of everything (it's just an exceptionally deceptively bad habit no an addiction, I am an addict) I had been drinking for so many years without truly opening my eyes and seeing it for what it really had become.
January 2018 I started again.
This was hard, I was experiencing withdrawals and quickly also the PAWS symptoms which left me incapable of pretty much anything devoid of positive thoughts or energy.
I am 48 and I am an alcoholic. Moderation failed.
Sobriety is a path that I have not walked for a very very long time.
I chose this path not just for the fad January experiment. ( I choose life)

My wish is that I do not trip or slip and that I keep heading towards the healthier happier future without poison.

I hope that you chose to join me and the others on this forum making better futures for us and our loved ones!
Best wishes Dusty😎
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