Sleepyhollo thank you! Several others replied that they have gone through the same thing. I really thought I was losing it. I explained how I felt to my AH and he is hurt and doesn't understand. But he said he won't touch me if that's what I want. Its not a matter of want, its a need right now. I cringe when he walks by me. I can understand your guilt with feeling that way with your husband when he is doing so well. Just like the damage wasn't done overnight, the damage won't be worked through overnight either. We can cheer them on in their successes, but they have to earn back that trust. Thanks for sharing, it really helped. 😁