Sorry to hear that. Obviously the first thing to do is not to beat yourself up. What didn't work this time? Do you have a support network on that end to help you? Know that there is no judgement here, GS...we wanna help. Agree w/Carl...do you have something specific that you can get implemented? Can't recall if you've had a talk with your doc yet. Might be worth a consideration if you haven't. Going this alone is tough...I know.
As always, lean on us, we're here and we get this.
Take care of yourself, k?