Wamama...the time that I felt like you describe was when I was going through a very painful breakup of an almost 4yr. relationship. I was grieving so hard!!! I had a kalidescope of feelings....
I soldiered through all the pain...because there was no other choice...no other way....I thought it would kill me...but, it didn't!! After I finished grieving...I went on to have a wonderful rest of my life.....