Hi and welcome! I used to drink vodka at the gym before working out - somehow that seemed reasonable. TRUST me life is so much better once you get past that initial first week. But you have to do it. You probably should see your doc and get a few days of ativan as you are probably going to need it. Also hydration - tons of water and vitamins. And possibly rehab if you can swing it. Stay close to here and in a week you will be a different person. You can do it- I did and just hit 8 months. Take care.