Hi and welcome jlong1978la
I often think back to how my loved ones were hostages in my long race to the bottom.
I at least can understand the actions of an insane alcoholic but for someone who may have no first hand experience of that it's hard to fathom. You may find its a longer road than you want to regaining trust and finding forgiveness.
doesn't mean you're a bad person, but it might mean your wife has 'stuff' to work through that's gonna take a little longer than 11 days
No matter what your wife believe s about alcoholism I believe she will, in time, respond positively to the changes and the new you you're becoming
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