My "rock bottom" moment was when I decided to drive blacked out.. didn't even make it down the street without running into a curb and totally f****** up the rim and tire on my car. I'd always been careful to not drive "too" drunk and have never had any similar incidents or DUIS. Luckily nothing worse happened but it was still a major wake up call. At that point I realized this really was only going to get worse and could destroy much more than my personal life.. I was no longer in control and there was no way of hiding it.
All the rims on my tires were removed and my car looks like sh*t because of it. But I still have not replaced them because I actually do need that visual reminder.. Sometimes that's really what it takes. So just hang in there and use this as a catalyst for real change.