(((sketscher)))
You've made a little bit of progress!! He finally got his stuff, and you DIDN'T answer his call! Remember baby steps, and progress not perfection!!
It will get easier if you continue to not have any contact with him. I know at least it has been that way for me. I haven't talked to exabf in two weeks, since I found some nasty porn in his email; I told him to leave me alone, as I thought he was a sicko. I know that wasn't the totally right thing to do, but maybe it's for the best.
Hang in there...sometimes it doesn't always feel very comfortable doing the right thing, as sometimes living in all the drama feels more normal, and when we don't have it we feel something is missing...but I think that means we are changing and making progress. Someday it will feel right!
Hugs,
Savana