Expressing my gratitude
I'm 40 days sober today and the last time I posted was during a similar period of sobriety around this time last year. However, I've still continued to read on and off. Espically recently.
If you saw me from afar, you'd think I had everything going for me. What you wouldn't see is that 1-2x a week I binge drink until blackout. 25+ drinks is easily attainable. My hangovers are epic and I estimate about 1/2 of my life is spent barely being able to function because of them. Just enough to eek by but at the same time convince myself I don't have a problem.
This is my 2nd serious attempt to quit. Most days are very easy but there are still some difficult moments. I really do have to go day to day and not think too far ahead. In fact, I often admit that I'll probably drink again some day but tell myself I just can't worry about that right now.
Reading SR, journaling and listening to AA podcasts have been great tools. My sincereist thanks to you good people!