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Old 01-09-2018, 08:17 PM
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Gottalife
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Well done on gettingnthrough that spot. In my experience I could keep that up for a reasonable time, then the fatal first drink would be taken. That was the trouble., I never saw that fatal first drink coming. 20/20 hindsight is a wonderful thing. I could see exactly what happened. Getting irritable, not doing anything to treat my alcholism, increasingly uncomfortable etc, not talking to people. But I was totally unaware, though many folks around me couls see what was happening. I could not.

So having learned the lessons of the past I resolved firmly (again) not to let it happen (again) and never saw it coming (again). There was more to this reovery business than I could think my way through it seems. My mental defences were the least reliable.
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