It sounds like you're going through a bit of hell right now. Despite that, though, you're fighting and on day 4. That's very, very impressive - I mean that. In my mind, there's few things harder than addiction coupled with mental health issues. And neither come along with much understanding from society. I know what you're doing is TOUGH - most people have never had to have such an experience - and I applaud your fight and your 4 day success. Keep going!