When I made my big plan, I felt a joy and peace I hadn't felt in decades. It was as a great weight had been lifted, knowing that not only did I no longer 'need' to drink, I would never drink again. There, at that instant, was an end to the shame and guilt, to the depression and anxiety, to the sickness of mind and heart and soul.
I think *all* of us AVRT folks feel much the same way. The dark past has indeed passed, and we are free to say yes to any and every new opportunity and challenge that we are fortunate to receive. It is through these new experiences and challenges that we grow and find meaning once again. This is how we find joy and beauty and our own measure of happiness.
I know you will feel the same, SoHard. Congratulations to you on this most profound achievement. Onward!