Originally Posted by
Horn95 
Thanks for all the kind words folks. I won’t recount all the things folks say upon relapse. I had been doing so well that I thought I could handle moderation again. I had done it for so long (I really hadn’t) I thought I could go back to social drinking. Nope.
I met a really great guy that I get along well with at AA. I think I will ask him to be my sponsor. I am just dumbfounded that I am so powerless over this GD substance.
Again, thanks everyone.
You definitely have what it takes to succeed. That is HONESTY! It does get easier to accept after some sobriety. You're the type of newcomer I like to seeing come to meetings. You're struggling to understand why but you know you are. The magic happens once you're convinced that booze has your number.
A newcomer asks an old timer after an AA meeting, "Hey Bob! How does AA work? Bob said, Just fine young man."