Thanks for all the kind words folks. I won’t recount all the things folks say upon relapse. I had been doing so well that I thought I could handle moderation again. I had done it for so long (I really hadn’t) I thought I could go back to social drinking. Nope.
I met a really great guy that I get along well with at AA. I think I will ask him to be my sponsor. I am just dumbfounded that I am so powerless over this GD substance.
Again, thanks everyone.