I understand how you feel. I am sorry you feel this way. Your husband could be more understanding. I know mine wasn't, he just wanted me to drink again. A to stop him looking like the alcoholic he is and B to make me more passive and easier to control.
I have stopped drinking a number of times before this time and I have always lost some friends; who in reality were drinking partners. But I have kept a core group but they mainly drink. I too get anxious at AA meetings but I am very keen to have some none drinking mates.
I am sorry you feel this way, I hope things get better. Thanks for posting.