Originally Posted by
LateBloominCait 
I do know what all that math in your head is like and the work it takes to try and moderate, control and mitigate my drinking binges. I got anxiety from trying to do all that without even factoring the alcohol in.
Yes! It's all part of the same package, I think, and comes from a lack of adequate desire to do the one and only thing that will end the madness: Stop drinking.
That would be my suggestion, just stop, ideally with support from a doctor who can prescribe meds to help protect you from the worst of the withdrawal symptoms.