Hi Cappy. Your words resonate. I drank for many, many years and stopping was the second most difficult thing for me to challenge. As to meetings- there are alway going to be people who annoy me at meetings. But I still go (and SMART) because the daily support of SR, health prof's anf meetings are necessary so I so not relapse..because next time, quite clinically stated- I qill succeed next time and will stay dead.
There is no magical formula for recovery. I remember the HALTS bit (if you are Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired/Thirsty, Sad/stressed) often hourly- if hungry-eat..etc. I do not aspire to make meetings my life- but balance is important. The meetings bit- just say you will share by listening. I think I get more out of these meetings- b4 and after. Journal writing and doing art stuff also helps.
I have enough diagnosis to fill a shopping trolley. Each difficulty in my life needs to be addressed separate yo each other- not just a huge, scary mess.