Its tough at first, especially when alcohol seems to be everywhere - TV adverts, magazine adverts, the prosseco and wine o'clock preoccupation that exists.
I came to realise that alcohol was never a reward for me.
It was not a treat, or even something nice to look forward to.
I would think back to times when I had perhaps expected to have 1 or 2 glasses of wine etc, but it turned into a blackout where I remembered nothing, gave me acute anxiety and caused me to hate myself and feel like the worst person in the world.
I didn't have this view straight away.
I took time.
I think we call it playing the tape until the end....maybe Dee can elaborate better than me.
But think back to a time when you planned on having an innocent few drinks and it turned into hell on earth.......remind yourself of all he heartache...for me alcohol was never a friend it was only ever an enemy.
I wish you the best xx