But if I could change whether I drink or not, I wouldn't be seeking help. That is why I haven't got any further ahead. There is a lot of research to show that decision-making both from mental health and alcohol addiction is damaged.
I know it will get better over time but for now it is a serious issue with me that I often act on impulse.
Hopefully being on here will give me more food for thought and a lot of time to reflect and hopefully make me think twice about picking up a drink.