Originally Posted by VigilanceNow

I completely relate to this, and I like what was said about it being a death spiral. Totally accurate. That's how the vicious cycle works - you end up drinking to get rid of anxiety and other physical and mental pain, only to create new and worse ones. That's why they call this a progressive illness; it truly can and will get worse if we don't stop the cycle for good. Once you stay sober for a bit, I've found that the anxiety and shame is put into perspective and becomes manageable again. It can take time, so be patient with yourself and actively seek out a sober support network. That way you can reach out to them rather than finding temporary relief in a pub. There's certainly no shame in asking for help!! Good luck and keep your head up :-)