Thank you for all your replies and kind words really needed them today.
I have taken so much from reading all of the posts on here they have been invaluable and helped me make better choices.
I tried to stay strong, but had some tears (whilst he sat there passive and drowsy) but I did not waiver. I think he thought I was bluffing, and I can’t blame him for that when his emotional blackmail has worked in the past and I’ve given in.
He’s not contacted me and I miss him! £150 has gone out the joint account and I think he may be using it for a deposit. This thing I wanted to happen and that I know is for the best is driving me insane! I’m so sad. I know I’m only reminiscing over happier times and missing them and the reality today is very different from that. But Mann! This is hard.
Struggled to get through work today without tears. Now I’m home I’m a wreck.
I don’t think he’s going to come back tonight now. That should make me happy because I won’t have to be on eggshells. But it just makes me cry.
Is this normal?!