I'm nearly a year sober the temptation has decreased to the point where I don't actually want a drink anymore, the hangover alone pits me off as well as how expensive it is. Also the fact that when i drink im prone to smoking is also another reason why I don't have much desire to go back to drinking.
Apart from when I get very angry, very angry and nihilistic. It's the nihilism that he caused me to drink so much and it's the nihilism that sometimes tempts me back. When I think of how insignificant my life is, and how insignificant the world is, just a little planet floating about in a enormous solar system in an infinite universe. It's those times where I think "**** it, why not have a drink, nothings gonna change either way". But something within tells me not to.
I'm 29 and I'm having an existential crisis.