Ps. Was this part of your step 9 and done with guidance from your sponsor? If not, it's probably worth chatting to her about it. Well, its worth chatting to her about how it went anyway - that should help stop the rattleyness. In the meantime look after those HALT triggers to maintain the quality of your sobriety today. Maybe a gratitude list as well. And perhaps a meeting. There are also loads of speaker recordings addressing step 9 on here....
https://www.recoveryaudio.org/step-9-speaker-tapes
Take care Chicka xx