Originally Posted by
tomsteve 
can ya explain the fear of alcoholism?
fear of continued drinking or fear of life without alcohol maybe?
or maybe neither?
The fear comes from having to admit I'm an alcoholic. Maybe I do go through this "pink cloud"experience. I do feel so happy and strong when I'm sober, and usually not a lot of struggles with the AV. When I feel strong, I think to myself "you got this", I don't post as much and I certainly haven't sought outside help. Then it bursts, there's no arguing from the AV, I just go buy booze, without even thinking about it. Like I'm on auto pilot...
