Scott, I really don't think my problems are any worse than others. In fact, I'm been a pretty lucky guy. Worked hard my whole life and am now reaping the benefits of that. Life isn't perfect but I see people with lives much more difficult than mine. But everybody and I mean everybody finds a way to deal with their situations. It's just human nature for people to find some relief from their pain. I will be sober tomorrow but the problems, even small, still exists. Got two weeks off from work, so plenty of time to explore. John