Originally Posted by
2muchpain 
Will be dumping out the rest of the alcohol I have left but also drank some. Tomorrow will be day 1. Gotta do this. If I don't I know whats coming if I don't quit and it ain't pretty. John
I hope you can get rid of the alcohol John. You can't fix any of your problems, including the committment issue until you stop drinking. It messes with your judgment and in a sense the act of drinking is backing away from/hiding from committments. As Dee said, there is no philosophy required, you just have to put down the bottle to get started. Make that one commitment today and keep it. You know you can do much better things sober because you've already done them.