Originally Posted by
Blindlove 
I guess what I'm getting at is, I'm torn. I understand his delusions have made him feel for a year the way I'm feeling now. But, his delusions weren't real, his betrayal of me is.
His delusions are caused by the drug use, not some random event that he has literally no control over. He knows that drugs make him believe things that are not true and yet he continues to use them. Does that help your heart get in line with your head?