Hi there, I am also in big book step study. It's not for everyone. It is very structured and I like that about it. But some of the sponsors there are very hardcore - they only talk about the book and for me - alcoholism is much more than just a book. Perhaps a different sponsor would be more helpful for you?
I had a very strict sponsor at first and it did not work for me. I got a new sponsor and started to attend different meetings in addition to big book step study. I found that worked much better for me. Maybe attending one big book step study meeting a week and some other types of meetings? Sobriety is not a one size fits all shoe...you've got to find what works for you.
Big hugs,
Bunny