Originally Posted by
Pressmetilihurt 
I don’t want to live in fear of drinking. I want to understand it’s bad for me. Understand what helps me stay sober and do that.
AA claims no monopoly on getting sober. You posted the same thoughts most of us had when coming into the rooms.
This is what I came to understand when asking those questions;
"The tremendous fact for every one of us is that we have discovered a common solution. We have a way out on which we can absolutely agree, and upon which we can join in brotherly and harmonious action. This is the great news this book carries to those who suffer from alcoholism."
"........spiritual awakening” are used many times in this book which, upon careful reading, shows that the personality change sufficient to bring about recovery from alcoholism......"
Alcoholics Anonymous
Best of luck to you in your journey and to all of us