Losing interest
I’ve been hitting meetings every day. It’s a scramble and I’m losing interest. I get it. People had a hard time. Drinking is bad. The program saved them. Yadda yadda. Feels so soap opera-y sometimes. I’m doing fine. I don’t want to live in fear of drinking. I want to understand it’s bad for me. Understand what helps me stay sober and do that. As I write this I hear my sponsors voice warning that I’m headed for trouble. Can I not though? Can I do the deal without desperation mindset?