Hello Nyc,
I understand what your going through, as my last binge lasted 7 days with 5 of those days calling in sick to work. I also tend to get a few months under my belt, and then I allow something to manifest within me (the ugly beast) and I drink. But like you, I don't just drink 1 night, I drink for days. I see my behavior as drinking more to forget the problems that my drinking is causing...vicious cycle.
I am now reading and posting here each morning, and every time I feel the urge or my AV (ugly beast) is nagging me to join him in hell. I am at 37 days.(And I am a 47 year old female)
Please step back and take a deep breath, you can do this again. Try some different things, see what helps and hold on. Were in this together.
Peace and blessings to you
