42 Days Then a Trigger and Slipped....Advice?
Well, I made it 42 days and was feeling good, going to meetings, meditating, being healthy etc. And then.... I slipped. I went grocery shopping and saw a very attractive person, seemed almost simultaneously this ripple just went through my whole body....and the pull of the wine section was strong. I tried being present, to tell my AV to shut up, thought of calling an AAer but my AV said no. I can only describe the feeling of anticipation like your first kiss in high school with your crush. It was like euphoria and panic all wrapped together.
Am I alone in how powerful this feeling can be? It caught me off guard and I tried to fight it off but I lost. What do I do different next time? I’m sober now but it feels like the switch has been flipped on again and I’m scared.