Thanks so much Scarly!!
I need to be reminded that the "I'll just get wasted tonight..." can and will lead to YEARS of struggles and pain and drinking that gets worse!
However hard it is to stay sober now, it will be more difficult if I need to deal with a "next time" and in the interim I would live a life of struggle and pain. NOW is THE time for me to stay sober. NOW is the easiest it will get and my best chance!!