Thank you everyone for your words of support.
I do over think things.
The biggest thing that has kept me from AA (mainly) is what if someone is there that i know? But thats silly isn't it? If they are there they probably won't be judging me because i am.... what a mess ive let my life turn in to... its overwhelming to look at how far I've fallen and how far i have to go to get back where i want and need to be....