Originally Posted by
KG77 
It's time to 💩 or get off the pot.
That's pretty much it KG. Having a support network can be very helpful, and things like IOP, rehab, counseling, AA can all be of tremendous value.
But the bottom line is that the choice to drink or not is 100% in your hands. And it is a choice - make no mistake about that. You CHOSE to drink last night instead of doing something else instead. You could have logged on here and jumped in the chat room, called some AA numbers, went for a walk, read a book, called your IOP contact number, ate a sandwich, watched a movie - the list is pretty much endless.
But make no mistake....drinking is a conscious, premeditated choice that we make. It doesn't just "happen". And I say "we" because we are all the same in this respect.
My guess is that like you say in the quoted statement above, you have not fully accepted that you are an alcoholic and that drinking is not an option. If you can do that, then you can answer your own question next time when you think about drinking - and just tell your AV that you dont' drink. And call for backup if you need it.