im wondering about this statement:
I knew i was going to drink last night, yet did nothing to stop it
makes me think you knew there is something you could have done to stop it, but you chose not to.
idk, maybe you have progressed to the stage of alcoholism where you lost the power of choice in whether or not ya drink.
either way,there IS a solution
you can read the big book of AA online to get an understanding of the program. the chapters,"more about alcoholism" and "there is a solution" would be a good place to start.
meetings are great, but meetings alone dont treat alcoholism.
as with every other recovery program, there is action.