thousandwords...I think that this is a signal that your "self" is trying to emerge...to have expression and to be "heard".....to have a voice.....
a voice from deep down, inside yourself.....
If you are good with children...perhaps you could start by volunteering to be an assistant to an art therapist.....or, even an art therapist who works with adults...
It would, at least, be a starting p oint....to get your toe in the art water......