Swoib,
You know what to do.
Unfortunately they still haven't produced a magic pill to get us to stop drinking or sober us up when we are. You need to stop drinking and not pick up for the next couple days. Then start on fixing yourself. If you want to cure yourself on the DL, then you have more problems in the family than booze.
Good luck Buddy we are all rooting for you. You can do it and your family and your SR family need you.