just another hiding place
It seems it would be a good idea to talk about this more, and yet, what good is talk without willingness to take action. I wonder if the not talking is just another convenient way to hide, another excuse not to take action. I've exhausted the few I have talked with about this decades long addiction, it's probably quite obvious to them I'll never change, I think they gave up on the conversation ever going anywhere. So I retreat back into silence on the matter. But that allows a free-for-all of the addictive thinking to go unchecked. Which is why I'm here now.