Originally Posted by Ghostlight1

You're certainly not alone. That drinking thinking got me drunk so many times I couldn't count them. Sometimes after even months of sobriety.
You could come here the next time you have those thoughts. Have you considered a group meeting like AA?
I found it very beneficial.
Just want to let you know you're not alone. I was a daily drinker for ten years, too. It took me awhile to recover.

Just pick yourself up and start again. I had to. A lot.
Best to you.