Messed up again
I just got through 10 days of sobriety after 15 years of drinking daily. It was remarkably easy. I felt great and proud of myself every day. For whatever reason, I just wanted to drink today come hell or high water. knowing that I would feel shame, knowing that I wouldn't feel good tomorrow, knowing that it's bad for my health, knowing that I would let myself down again. And I debated all day, and the alcoholic in me won again. But I won't let him win tomorrow. God bless everyone that struggles with this menace.