Bone,
After over 2.5 years sober, I still crave. It is brain damage. Folks that don't crave are lucky.
They say AA fixes that, but I haven't caved yet. I am happy sometimes and sad sometimes. That is living life clean.
I tend to obsess. It might be from drinking, it might not be. But, not drinking has helped me become more aware of my obessions and get help.
I come here and I also use another online depression forum that has a nice interface. I feeling that when I drank (since I was a little kid) I was self medicating and never really learned how to cope w life clean.
Thanks.