Originally Posted by
Hope1989 
@Silverback4 thanks for the words... but I just can't understand if I know that I can't drink, why do I do it ?.... My mind just plays tricks on me (yeah, I'll handle it)... That's not smart!!
this is where reading the big book- the chapters 'there is a solution" and "more about alcoholism" would help.
the power of choice- even when i didnt want to drink, i couldnt not drink because i lost the power of choice. i had to have a power greater than me to help- a power not of this world.
the mental obsession isnt something i could just push away and say "NO" to on my own.