Harsh decision
Hey guys,
I know this make sounds a little bit harsh, but I want to make sobriety my number one priority.
Now that I'm sober (I drank on Friday) and are sort of thinking a little bit more clear, I want to get sober before anything else.
This meaning I don't care if I lose my job (obviously I rather don't), but as for the moment, alcohol is making my life hell. If I don't fix this I will lose my job anyway and also, things will just keep going down.
I know I am an alcoholic, and I even go and drink. That's what worries me, that it's my own fault because I'm the one that decides to take that first drink, so not only it worries me that I'm an alcoholic but also maybe I'm stupid and irresponsible it not being able to stop that first drink.
So I just felt like writing a little bit, because obviously I'm in a bad place now.