yea, i think the fantasiscing is my worse problem. Here lately, my veins pop out so amazingly..when they used to hide all the time, and the only place i could succeed was my neck. But, every friggen time i look at my arms...its just like, OMG...
I have to admit, that i've been tempted to shoot ANYTHING up. Just to shoot. I miss the feeling. Thats an addiction in itself. Im a cutter as well...so i miss the feeling of the pain, and then, the numbness...oh god, and the way it made me feel...wow. One of the greatest feelings in the wrold. Its so hard...i crave it, i crave that burning sensatoin that flows though your blood stream...
bah. ok. i really need to stop..there i go..fantasicing once again. Its so hard!