Weird
Last night I had this weird anxiety rush through me. The thought I had that caused the anxiety was 'I can never drink again'.
Well, I know this. I have not often thought about the future and not drinking as I am sober one day at a time, and I have milestone goals, the current is 3 months, which is in 19 days. I don't often think of future dates, maybe once a week I will see how close I am to the next milestone.
Last night was the first time I had anxiety about not be able to drink, it was quick and I honestly thought about it for a few minutes just to ride the wave. I didn't like the feeling. I don't want to think that far in the future because I don't want to relapse.
That was share worthy.